So I actually had the bulk of a Saturday free. Done with work today at 1pm and wasn't able to make any plans that actually stuck. So, after ambleing aimlessly thru the tv channels a few times and not finding anything to hold my interest, I ended up polishing off the last 2/3rds of the book I was reading. It was actually not a bad way to spend the day actually. Pretty enjoyable for the most part. The book was excellent. Just had a few parts in it that sorta pulled at areas of my heart that I'd rather have left alone right now.
But really, I guess it's probably better to have those areas poked and prodded a little from time to time right now. Or really, more tilled and dug in than poked and prodded right now. Just a big learning curve on what I'm trying to wrap my head around right now.
But it is definitely for the best. And I am figureing out what it is I need to figure out.
Sort of.
Slowly.
But would you really expect anything different from me?
But the book. It was good. Very good. By Geoffrey Wood. The second book of his I've read. The second book he's written for that matter. Called The God Cookie. Go pick up a copy. When it's available for the public to buy... Sometimes it's nice having a friend that works for a publishing company :)
Not much else to report here for the weekend. Volleyball started yesterday. It was alright. Definitely could have been better. Lost all three games. But hopefully that got all the rust out of the system and next week will be better! The weather here was pretty awesome this week. Temps in the 60s a couple of days. And then Friday it was COLD and tried to snow again. And today was apparently cold too. Should be another boring week of work coming up next. At least there is the First Anual Super Bowl Bowl to look forward to on Saturday! And volleyball the night before that too! And that really is all I have for now I think. And it seems like I may be able to fall asleep fairly soon if I go now, so that is what I am going to do. Since it is almost 12:30 now...
Night.
music: "Hear You Me" -- Jimmy Eat World
a.w.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
vernie
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening -- Robert Frost
Came across a bunch of poems that I found in my stuff that I had saved from when I was in school. Like elementary school. I was an odd little kid. But I'm sure most of you could've already guessed that if you didn't know for sure. ;) Anyway, there's some good stuff in there. And seen as how I did memorize it all at some point...I figure a good way to start remembering it is to type it out. At least, that seems to have worked with other things in the past. Whatever. It's a decent little poem. And with all the snow that we got this morning, it seems rather fitting. Kinda wish I had a snowy wood to stop by tonight. But more with a faithful old dog sitting next to me in my truck instead of me sitting on a horse...
And, once again, iTunes random selection proves to be somewhat freakishly in tune with life...
Also, my mother apparently is more observant than I generally give her credit for. That's twice in the last few months that she's surprised me with that. Maybe it's time to change my expectations. She is my mother after all. Guess I should expect that my abilities came from somewhere...
Really, iTunes just needs to stop.
Or maybe I just need to shut it down for the night. But I just can't turn the music off. Life needs a soundtrack, no matter if it is a painful one. So many smiles...
Life really is amazing.
There's still just so much...that I want to do. That I want to say. That I want to live.
With.
Not alone.
I don't want to run anymore. But I don't know if the direction I'm being pulled is the right way. Will it really help anything? Is it even practical? Is life really about being practical? Am I just trying too hard? Trying to see something that really isn't there... But it has to be there, if it has been there this long. Right?
There I go with the vaugeness again. Oops. Maybe I just need to sleep. For a week.
That would be nice.
"it will take more than a heavy rain to silence us..."
If you need me in the next few weeks, you just might find me wanderin the streets. There's a strange calm sometimes in the midst of a crowd. And the winter air tickles the mind as only certain things can.
music: "Twenty Years" -- Augustana
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening -- Robert Frost
Came across a bunch of poems that I found in my stuff that I had saved from when I was in school. Like elementary school. I was an odd little kid. But I'm sure most of you could've already guessed that if you didn't know for sure. ;) Anyway, there's some good stuff in there. And seen as how I did memorize it all at some point...I figure a good way to start remembering it is to type it out. At least, that seems to have worked with other things in the past. Whatever. It's a decent little poem. And with all the snow that we got this morning, it seems rather fitting. Kinda wish I had a snowy wood to stop by tonight. But more with a faithful old dog sitting next to me in my truck instead of me sitting on a horse...
And, once again, iTunes random selection proves to be somewhat freakishly in tune with life...
Also, my mother apparently is more observant than I generally give her credit for. That's twice in the last few months that she's surprised me with that. Maybe it's time to change my expectations. She is my mother after all. Guess I should expect that my abilities came from somewhere...
Really, iTunes just needs to stop.
Or maybe I just need to shut it down for the night. But I just can't turn the music off. Life needs a soundtrack, no matter if it is a painful one. So many smiles...
Life really is amazing.
There's still just so much...that I want to do. That I want to say. That I want to live.
With.
Not alone.
I don't want to run anymore. But I don't know if the direction I'm being pulled is the right way. Will it really help anything? Is it even practical? Is life really about being practical? Am I just trying too hard? Trying to see something that really isn't there... But it has to be there, if it has been there this long. Right?
There I go with the vaugeness again. Oops. Maybe I just need to sleep. For a week.
That would be nice.
"it will take more than a heavy rain to silence us..."
If you need me in the next few weeks, you just might find me wanderin the streets. There's a strange calm sometimes in the midst of a crowd. And the winter air tickles the mind as only certain things can.
music: "Twenty Years" -- Augustana
Sunday, January 4, 2009
walkin in a winter wonderland
Snowed yesterday :)
For any of you who may not know...for the last couple of months my "full-time" job had been rather on the slow side of things. As in the entire month of December I worked a grand total of 8 hours for them. Yeesh. However, I was blessed to have a roommate who works for FedEx Ground in the early a.m. and was able to help me sorta skip to the front of the line of applications and get in there rather quickly. It was only part-time hours, but I generally was getting somewhere between 20 and 25 hours a week. Also, it was obviously peak season at my part-time job at the mall, and seen as how they underhired for the holiday season, ( and my schedule was rather open) I was able to pick up quite a few hours there. So in all, I still was putting in a couple weeks that were approaching 70 hours...
However, Friday was my last morning at FedEx! I start a new full-time position on Monday, and will still be at the store part-time. I am thinking I am going to cut back my hours there for the next couple of weeks to sort of get settled in at the new job and to just have a bit of a break from there without actually taking a break from there...(sometimes the mall can just become a place that is not fun to go to anymore, I know that that may be a difficult concept for any women out there to understand) But a little mini-break from there is all I should really need.
My new full-time job is once again doing low voltage wiring and such, but as opposed to my last job that involved mostly entertainment aspects of this (TVs, internet, phone, surround sound, theatres) and dealing with individual families, this new job focuses more on commercial jobs and non-entertainment applications (things like security, access control, and fire detection/monitoring). So basically, I have tons to learn again. But that should be a good thing, as this place sounds like they will actually teach me things that I need to know and want me to learn more and more as opposed to the last place that just sort of said they would teach me and then never really did.
So right now, I am kind of in the excited/nervous stage of things. I am excited to be starting something new and something that seems like it is growing and is a much better situation than what I am coming from. But I am nervous that I can actually learn all that I need to. Of course I always think that I should be able to learn everything that there is to learn within the first week, so maybe I should just not be too hard on myself yet and see how long it actually takes to learn everything.
And I think that that is about all I have to write about for now. There are still a lot of other things that are on my mind and keeping/waking me up at nights sometimes. Whenever I get to actually sleep at night now. Which is going to be on a regular basis agian now, so it could be interesting. Might not have helped this night that just ended, that I was reading The Book of Lost Things right as I was falling asleep and I'm pretty sure that it contributed to my very very very strange dream that I had that woke me up for the first time at about 3:30 in the a.m. Thankfully, I was able to get back to sleep this time. Unlike last Sunday morning when I just woke up, randomly and for no reason at all, at about 3:45 a.m. and could never fall back asleep.
Anyway, it's time for breakfast. Hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas, and a wonderful 2008! 2009 should be an interesting year. Keep in touch. We all need our friends. They are one of the greatest joys of life. I'll try to get on this thing more often and let ya'll know how I'm doing, but really, I want to know how all of YOU are doing. So let me know. I'm always here and my phone is always on. :)
music: "Believe" -- Yellowcard
For any of you who may not know...for the last couple of months my "full-time" job had been rather on the slow side of things. As in the entire month of December I worked a grand total of 8 hours for them. Yeesh. However, I was blessed to have a roommate who works for FedEx Ground in the early a.m. and was able to help me sorta skip to the front of the line of applications and get in there rather quickly. It was only part-time hours, but I generally was getting somewhere between 20 and 25 hours a week. Also, it was obviously peak season at my part-time job at the mall, and seen as how they underhired for the holiday season, ( and my schedule was rather open) I was able to pick up quite a few hours there. So in all, I still was putting in a couple weeks that were approaching 70 hours...
However, Friday was my last morning at FedEx! I start a new full-time position on Monday, and will still be at the store part-time. I am thinking I am going to cut back my hours there for the next couple of weeks to sort of get settled in at the new job and to just have a bit of a break from there without actually taking a break from there...(sometimes the mall can just become a place that is not fun to go to anymore, I know that that may be a difficult concept for any women out there to understand) But a little mini-break from there is all I should really need.
My new full-time job is once again doing low voltage wiring and such, but as opposed to my last job that involved mostly entertainment aspects of this (TVs, internet, phone, surround sound, theatres) and dealing with individual families, this new job focuses more on commercial jobs and non-entertainment applications (things like security, access control, and fire detection/monitoring). So basically, I have tons to learn again. But that should be a good thing, as this place sounds like they will actually teach me things that I need to know and want me to learn more and more as opposed to the last place that just sort of said they would teach me and then never really did.
So right now, I am kind of in the excited/nervous stage of things. I am excited to be starting something new and something that seems like it is growing and is a much better situation than what I am coming from. But I am nervous that I can actually learn all that I need to. Of course I always think that I should be able to learn everything that there is to learn within the first week, so maybe I should just not be too hard on myself yet and see how long it actually takes to learn everything.
And I think that that is about all I have to write about for now. There are still a lot of other things that are on my mind and keeping/waking me up at nights sometimes. Whenever I get to actually sleep at night now. Which is going to be on a regular basis agian now, so it could be interesting. Might not have helped this night that just ended, that I was reading The Book of Lost Things right as I was falling asleep and I'm pretty sure that it contributed to my very very very strange dream that I had that woke me up for the first time at about 3:30 in the a.m. Thankfully, I was able to get back to sleep this time. Unlike last Sunday morning when I just woke up, randomly and for no reason at all, at about 3:45 a.m. and could never fall back asleep.
Anyway, it's time for breakfast. Hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas, and a wonderful 2008! 2009 should be an interesting year. Keep in touch. We all need our friends. They are one of the greatest joys of life. I'll try to get on this thing more often and let ya'll know how I'm doing, but really, I want to know how all of YOU are doing. So let me know. I'm always here and my phone is always on. :)
music: "Believe" -- Yellowcard
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
pull me out from inside
There is so much inside that seems like it is trying to force it's way out.
Most of it involves tears.
So much about so many things.
I think I am scared of the terrifyingness of life.
Ironic.
music: "I'm Not Sleeping" -- Counting Crows
Most of it involves tears.
So much about so many things.
I think I am scared of the terrifyingness of life.
Ironic.
music: "I'm Not Sleeping" -- Counting Crows
Monday, December 8, 2008
unseen
So, I thought my back was sore today just from the sheer amount of use that it has been getting lately... And then I remembered when I woke up from my nap that I had stood up in one of the trucks at FedEx right into the bottom of a metal shelf. Yeah. Kinda hurt. But what are ya gonna do? Just gotta walk it off, right? Right. So that's what I did.
Possibly more coming in the next couple of days. Or maybe next week sometime. I'll let ya know... :(
"Arms Of A Woman" -- Amos Lee
Possibly more coming in the next couple of days. Or maybe next week sometime. I'll let ya know... :(
"Arms Of A Woman" -- Amos Lee
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
the click five
So, I'm beginning to wish that I wasn't so vague as I am at times... This is coming from reading some of my old entries from a year or more ago and not being able to remember what I was talking about in my vague ramblings. Oops. I guess sometimes I just needed to get the general feelings out and wasn't so concerned about the actual events. Although, now it would sure be nice to know some of the actual events as well. Oh well.
I realize I really haven't said a whole lot on here in the last few months. Guess I have been spending a good deal of my time that I have been away from work on the phone with a certain 5'11" red-head... :) And, at least up through a week ago, I'd been spending a good deal of the rest of my time either at work or sleeping.
But my regular job is rather sketchy, to say the least, lately. So time spent working has been greatly reduced in the last week. Time spent looking for work has been greatly increased. There are a couple possibilities out there right now, just need to figure out if they are things that I shoud do or not. And the possibilities that I have been finding job postings for and emailing my resume in to...I haven't heard back from. Which is always fun.
But enough about the job...seems like that is just the trend right now... And I do still have a job at least. Just not really a whole lot to do there most days.
The weather is finally getting colder. At least for a couple of days. And it is actually supposed to snow up in the mountains tonightish, it sounds like. Now if we could just get some of that snow down here. Which reminds me...I should've checked to see if my sandbags are still in my parent's garage or if I need to get new ones for this winter. I don't think I actually ever put them in my truck last year. Probably not the best of ideas, as I did end up facing the wrong way a few times on the little side street that our office is on. But it's a curvy road and sometimes I just forget that I shouldn't be so forceful on the gas pedal when the ground is icy...
And...I think that may be all for now. Time to go read H.P. again...only 3 and a half books left this time around and then I think I may actually try to find something new to read. Or just reread some Shakespeare or Dickens. Yeah, that actually sounds like a good idea.
music: "Trouble" -- Ray LaMontagne
I realize I really haven't said a whole lot on here in the last few months. Guess I have been spending a good deal of my time that I have been away from work on the phone with a certain 5'11" red-head... :) And, at least up through a week ago, I'd been spending a good deal of the rest of my time either at work or sleeping.
But my regular job is rather sketchy, to say the least, lately. So time spent working has been greatly reduced in the last week. Time spent looking for work has been greatly increased. There are a couple possibilities out there right now, just need to figure out if they are things that I shoud do or not. And the possibilities that I have been finding job postings for and emailing my resume in to...I haven't heard back from. Which is always fun.
But enough about the job...seems like that is just the trend right now... And I do still have a job at least. Just not really a whole lot to do there most days.
The weather is finally getting colder. At least for a couple of days. And it is actually supposed to snow up in the mountains tonightish, it sounds like. Now if we could just get some of that snow down here. Which reminds me...I should've checked to see if my sandbags are still in my parent's garage or if I need to get new ones for this winter. I don't think I actually ever put them in my truck last year. Probably not the best of ideas, as I did end up facing the wrong way a few times on the little side street that our office is on. But it's a curvy road and sometimes I just forget that I shouldn't be so forceful on the gas pedal when the ground is icy...
And...I think that may be all for now. Time to go read H.P. again...only 3 and a half books left this time around and then I think I may actually try to find something new to read. Or just reread some Shakespeare or Dickens. Yeah, that actually sounds like a good idea.
music: "Trouble" -- Ray LaMontagne
Sunday, November 2, 2008
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